Saturday, April 25, 2015

Comfortable in the skin I'm in.....

Hello World...

If you've been following me, you know I had a fashion show last night.   I'm really enjoying doing more shows.  I'm meeting more people and learning a lot more each time.



Due to my curviness, I'm considered a plus sized model which doesn't bother me at all.  I grew up as the real skinny girl with a butt..LOL...no hips but my gluteus has always been maximus with my body proportions.  And that was not a fun time in my life I could never gain weight, no matter how much I ate my metabolism just burned it all away which was cool in a small way.  I was very active in school with track and other activities so I was conditioning my body to burn so no real issue there.  But boy when I started gaining weight little my little, I started getting hips and I was a happy camper.  The only thing is that (and i love my DNA for this) my proportions small top, small waist, hips and a nice sized derriere producing very nice curves.  I love my curves but the fashion industry seems to only like the curves on size 10's and smaller.....WELP...this Ageless Beauty will NOT be dropping down beyond my size 12/14 frame...so plus sized it is.  On a fitness note, I do have a trainer to keep the curves tamed and toned, shouts out to Curtis Hayes of Curtis Supreme Fitness  he not only trains you to YOUR goal but makes sure your nutrional plan keeps you where you want and need to be....he teaches you the whole package.  *thanks coach!*

So this blog is in reference to my backstage observations last night during the fashion show.  I was part of a team of curvy models, and we rocked it by the way...shouts out to FR Collections, so backstage is always a mixture of all sizes.  Sometimes majority are the slimmer models but hey no biggie we all get dressed together.  So last night I just kinda sat back and observed everything.  The first nugget was listening to a convo and one young lady says "....oh yeah I work out, I want to be an established model so I can't get fat."  I got her meaning, it's just that people don't really think all the way through when they are conversing.  Next were the multiple requests of "oooo hey I really like this piece; can you make this in MY size?" emphasis on "my" as if her sewing machine only creates plus sized clothing.  And then (and this was a doozy) when one of the models admired a dress hanging on the rack and said "hey, i'm getting this dress!  This is me!" her friend (attempting to whisper) said "girl you can't wear that one, that's for big people."

All I could do was chuckle and chalk it up to their innocence.  One day they too will get older, will have kids or who knows what life will throw at them and they'll figure out a filter and realize that innocence and the true definition of ignorance are very close neighbors.  At an earlier point in my life I may have been annoyed, angered may be even a little humiliated due to whatever insecurity I was dealing with BUT I just turned 43 last month and guess who is comfortable in their skin.  **Hand Raised**



The fashion industry has come a long way and being a bean pole with no ass is no longer the common look.  Yes, a lot of designers still look for a skinny, curvy model (which almost sounds oxymoronish) but there are a lot more that create for those of us with curves plus a little more.

I always end my posts with a positive word...so let's look at more positive responses to the 2 observed scenarios.  Instead of the young lady saying "I want to model and can't get fat" she could've said "I want to model and I prefer to stay this size...".  The other scenario the young lady didn't even have to respond, I mean that was just a homer simpson "doh!" moment, seriously.

I encourage you to stay healthy, stay fit and be comfortable in the skin you're in.  Don't base your life and looks on something that isn't real.  Pictures are airbrushed and the bean pole models don't really get a chance to enjoy life (in my opinion) because every food moment has to be measured and thought about in calories and carbs and whatever.  As a model, I get it to a certain degree but life has taught me that it's everything in moderation including exercise and diet.  As a foodie....bump that, I'm tasting and I'm eating baaay bay! (*shamless plug: check out my food review site to see where i'm eating.*)

Don't let society pull you in....do YOU!


Peace and Blessings....

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Monday, April 6, 2015

Him....



Hello World...


Him...

right now it's just infatuation but i'm loving this sensation of getting to know Him..
sure it's brand new, same level as puppy love but I have to thank the man that watches me from up above for giving me a chance to cross paths with Him....

Enjoy your day....

Peace and Blessings.....


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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Life is what you make it.....

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(click here for sounds)

One of my FB friends posted a picture that says:

"I surround myself with people that force me to do better."

And that is something I have ALWAYS done because at some point in my life, my self-motivation has waned something terribly.  So I make myself do better by being around go-getters.  You can't sit back and chill when your friends are constantly morphing into their true butterfly selves!



I'm meeting folks from everywhere...social media is a beautiful thing!  One thing I'm getting more into here in "hotlanta" is modeling.  Check me out here.  Yes the nerves are there...I wanna do more singing but the nerves...uuugh...they keep holding me back....and THEEEEEEN tonight at a casting call for The Lyngale Agency I sat down and had a good conversation with a fellow 40+ beauty that I'd talked to before ya know just chit chat nothing serious and THEN tonight she told me her story.  She was going along in life, husband/kids and out of the blue at the end of her work day, her eyesight started fading....she's actually going blind because of some rare fluke of a genetic foolishness.  Still vibrant, still radiant, still loving life!  Still a mom, still a wife with an awesomely supportive husband.  I'm not going to call her name because it's her story to tell and when she does it'll be a book to read, I know I'll buy it.  But you see this convo happened at a casting call, the first time we met was at a model runway class.  She hadn't stopped living and here I am nervous due to just plain ole being scared, the genetic issues I have didn't dibilitate me to the point of not being able to move around.  My food intake, natural herbs and moderate exercises have worked for me.  I'm still able to walk, talk and do what I want and I'm too scared to live my life like I should.

The song you heard earlier said "Life is what you make it..." and dammit it is!  I am ashamed...so ashamed as well I should be.  And at this point/going forward I shall do better about living and not just existing!  I have NO excuses!

In conclusion..... Life is what you make it....make it GOOD!!!!!

((Hugs)) Peace and Blessings!!



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Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Is it really this easy??

Hello World....

Life in 2015 has been awesome and interesting!



"Mister Man" is no longer.....  My hopeless romantic, nurturing personality sometimes allows me to dwell in situations longer than need be mostly because I always hope the situation goes back to the first feeling long after it's gone.  After awhile, being on the bottom of the priority list gets old, very old.  I think I had my fingers crossed that the whole "opposites attract" scenario would play out to be a groovy thing.  I finally figured out that I'm active and I like my guy to be active with me, maybe not 100% (because he has his own life) but 80% at least.  A concert here, a picnic there, couples stuff...oh well.  Problem solved and life has gotten a lot better.

After growing used to not having someone in your corner for a long period of time, having someone not only show up but show up and step right in place with just the mention of their presence wanting to be there..... (whew..long sentence) is sooooooo exhilirating and I'm grinning from ear to ear.  This really puts the definition of getting out of a wrong situation so the right one can begin.  I'm loving this scenario and at the same time I'm wondering "is it really this easy?".  And if so, whyyyyy the heck have I been dwelling on those with the ultimate "unavailable" status?  Was I scared of what could happen? Scared of change? What?  I do know that I have some professional changes to make so I'm not surprised if that's the case.  Yep, I'm working on me.

This week is special...in a few days I will be celebrating another year on this earth.  As the gospel song says "it's another day's journey and I'm glad...I'm so glad to be here..." and hmmmm (huge smile) I'll be celebrating with a new outlook.  It'll be a little awkward because this weekend I have a crazy dental appointment which might impair my eating. :-(  For this reason I celebrated with friends last weekend....I had a blast!  But this weekend (Saturday 3/21 to specific) I know with confidence that if I pick up the phone and request a quick date it'll happen, I won't be irritated for my birthday.
:-)  It's a beautiful thing.



This year WILL be awesome!  And again I'm thinking "is it really this easy?"  LOL.....

Well....I'm about to see!

Oh yes so the moral of this story is.....make a mistake, learn from that mistake while you're in it (because at that point you probably don't realize it's a mistake) and when you finally realize that you've made that mistake...GET OUT!  Get out of it and move on.  Lessons learned and try not to do it again.

Peace and Blessings....

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Monday, February 16, 2015

On a Mission...

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This thought came to me during my morning commute.  I work in Midtown Atlanta and my route includes a large pedestrian walk that stops traffic at will.  Yes, the push of a button activates flashing lights and the pedestrian walks across and the cars HAVE to stop. Luckily it's the state law that cars have to stop if a pedestrian is in a streeet crosswalk (not the crosswalks at the intersections of traffic signals. don't get run over and blame me. wait your turn! LOL).   Anywho as I was strolling taking my time as these 2 and 3 ton machines (and their drivers) had to wait until I got across, I thought about the type of power one has when they are walking in their destiny and on that straight path.  No need to hurry...no need to speed up because of someone else's emergency or negative energy.  Take your time and get to your goal in the allotted time...because a hurried action on someone else's part means consequences for THEM.



Moral of this story....

In the words of the infamous SOS Band "you can do it take your time do it right...." (click SOS and jam)

You only get this life ONCE...have fun...do what you were born to do and LIVE!!!

Peace and Blessings...


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Sunday, February 15, 2015

A Change gone come.....2015

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Everyday somebody somewhere makes a different decision.  Yep, you've heard the saying that speaks to "someone doing things in the same manner but expecting a different outcome" right?  It's the same as a person walking around in a circle and expecting to end up in a different spot.  Sounds crazy...but lots of people do it in life.  With relationships, with their career, their mindset, their habits..it happens everyday.



No worries....bad habits can be broken and new thoughts added to the process.  It can be done.  Continue to chart your goals and set a deadline for each.  This will force you to figure out what which steps need to be adjusted.  You can also compare the steps of a past accomplishment to a current goal and see what you did to succeed, do what works.  As the picture above reads, it's all a process not just one event, shit happens and then you figure it out.

This past weekend was one of those holidays that people poke fun of the mistress or side piece.  You have ladies that revel in being that part-time lover <---- enjoy... they are of a special brood that I dare not attempt to understand...and then some ladies actually fall for a line from a guy that he will leave or is leaving his wife or some other line that keeps her in his life for years and years sometimes even with children born to their union.  Now from this situation you have folks that want to change but even when they get free of one situation they roll into another similar situation.  Not the mistress of a marriage but the mistress nonetheless, more of an after thought.  NO he's not married but he is unavailable to you in the way that you need him to be.  Hopeless romantics get caught up in situations like this, they hope for what they want and look for signs of possibility even though they know in their heart of hearts that nothing will change.  The red flag to move is there but they don't want to ruin this comfortable moment...it's a moment...yes enjoy it but then let it go.  Move on...a change has to come.



Check out your situation, your surroundings...now think about how your situation makes you feel.  Are you happy?  I mean really really happy?  If the answer is yes then you are in a good place; if the answer is no then it's time to move....it's time for a change.

It's not going to be easy, it's not going to feel good at all.  It's going to feel like you are pulling scab from a wound but if you're honest with yourself you'll admit that that wound had never really healed.   Take your own happiness in your hands and heal yourself, get back to the things that make you think with a clear head and make the better decisions.

Congratulations on step 1...and hey....don't you move backwards!  That situation may seem like a comfort zone but it's not...don't do it!  Keep moving forward!  The outcome will be a blessing for you in the long run.

The moral of today's blog story:
Forward movement..always forward movement.  Make the change and enjoy the new rewards!



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Monday, February 2, 2015

Bad Mood Killers

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Well it's Monday.... yaaaay!  For some people it's an instant mood killer, they get the Monday blues and feel angry for some reason.  On a personal note, I'm just glad to be in the land of the living because somewhere somebody is planning a funeral.  Kinda of morbid but it is life.

One thing that is kind of cool about my current day job is that I get to do a little bit of counseling with my customer service.  If my co-workers have a problem and they are just sure that there's no way to fix it, I get to put my thinking cap on and figure out a work-around plan of action and help them to have a positive outcome...and guess what that does?  That helps me to think about a positive outcome of my own personal issue (whatever that may be at the moment).  So the title of today's blog is "Bad Mood Killers" and guess what the number one way (in my opinion) is to kill a bad mood:

Help somebody else!



Yes.  When you are helping somebody else you don't have time to wallow in your issue OR while you are helping somebody else you will get a solution to your issue.

It's a win-win - "Look at Gawt" (inside joke, some will laugh, some won't).

So as I close this thought for the day here is the moral...

EVERYday is gonig to have an issue or two...it's how you handle it tha makes the difference.  I, as a matter of fact, have just written myself into a better mood.  Yep this morning I wasn't feeling "it"..nothing specific just wasn't feeling "it".  I got up, dragging my feet and decided to eventually make it into work and as I started typing I am feeling better.  Even though a huge source of negativity just walked through the door, you know those people that you just want to blink them into the Phantom Zone with the rest of Krypton's prisoners, (my fellow comic fans will get it).  Yes even "negative nelly" just walked in I'm still going to focus on a positive day.  In Jesus name!

*Wooo saaah*

As you continue your day, remember to focus on the positive, take a walk outside (weather permitting) and breathe in some fresh air to clear your head and get the adrenaline pumping.  Life is short and it's what we make it...so make it a great one!  Everyday pull out your bad mood killers, it's makes life so much better. I promise!



Peace and Blessing....

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